I’m not going to include the brackets, just because this may possibly end up as a long explanation and I’m feeling a tad bit lazy. Anyway. You don’t /have/ to read, but if you’d like to know where I’ve been then continue reading.
I haven’t been RPing here for quite some time because I just started Tumblr in October, then ended up with too much on my plate IRL + here + other websites such as Facebook/DeviantArt. Yeah, I’m an artist with some major writer’s block. It happens a lot, but I usually pull through because of my friends constantly poking at me. (-Cough.-Butz/Tifa/Aerith-Cough.-) Not that it’s a bad thing, I honestly love them for it since it brings me back into RPing and encourages me to keep drawing too.
I honestly don’t know what I’m doing with Cloud right this second. I’ve been RPing him since 2006 and I’ve been RPing for a total of 11 years. 7 of those years have been spent being completely serious (Grammar/Spelling had to be 100% perfect) and then last year I basically gave up on RPing for a whole year since things got out of hand. I’ve had people fall in love with “me” while RPing with me and everything turned fucking batshit crazy. We’ll leave it at that. But this year in January, I decided to try once more in a new place around new people that I’ve never met… Hoping to get away from the drama and all of the nonsense. I met a lot of awesome people and brought a few of them over here to Tumblr. :] With them, I decided to do things differently.
Having fun without all the serious bullshit. I’m going to work on and expand Cloud’s personality/behavior/etc. while RPing with everyone here. Without all the pressure, for once. So once I figure out things with my friends Tifa (themaidenfromnibelheim) and Aerith (meteorfallcetra), I’ll get started on RPing with Cloud again. We’re trying to work out a story arc of our own and we’re going to include other canon characters from FFVII eventually. :] I just need to figure out where Cloud and Tifa are starting out (They were married over on Facebook and working things out from there) then go from there with figuring out how different Cloud is. How much he’s changed within his own mind/feelings. Once I know how Cloud is feeling, I’ll be able to RP properly without worrying myself about whether or not he’s too cold or too awkward.
I’ll make another announcement when Cloud is ready to go as well as update my information and get all that settled. So, I’m not gone guys. Just trying to think things through so I don’t forget what I’m doing and make things awkward for myself. Feel free to send messages though. :]
To those of you who know of my other Tumblr account: Feel free to talk to me there in the mean time!
[[ LOL I feel the same way about myself, which is why I don’t approach anyone. xD Feel free to come at me. P: ]]
((>_> Okay. I will…one day. When I stop doubting myself. :D))
[[ I have a feeling this will get nowhere real fast then. xD I’ll man up and send something your way tomorrow. I’ll also try to be less intimidating? P: ]]
ooc: I thank you from the bottom of my heart for your concern, Zack’s deletion has been a shock to me. I just didn’t need an anon giving me grief when I have my dad’s funeral coming up. I would love to RP with again though.
[[ I honestly hope that Zack comes to his senses and realizes he should at least stay here with the people who care for him. Did he say he wanted to delete himself because of people giving him a hard time? I’ve been seeing that a lot lately where people want to leave Tumblr due to the anons or whatever, but I’m new to Tumblr so I don’t know much about anything. I’m sorry that this jackass Anon is trying to hurt you when you’re going through so much, my condolences to you… I’ll most likely make a new post for you and I, but on the same subject we were at. So no worries there. I’m glad that I’ve met you because I think things happen for a reason… Let me know if I can ever help you out. ]]
ooc: Zack is a great guy, I think he just wears his heart on his sleeve, which isn’t a bad thing at all, in fact it makes me adore him all the more. But I hope he does come back because I miss him terribly. Anons have an amazing ability of picking the worst time to pick at how you’re feeling, of what you think about situations and questioning why you feel a certain way. I thank you for your condolences, I just feel like I’m losing people at the moment and I feel powerless to stop it or make things better for them. I’d really appreciate any distraction you can offer me at the moment, next week is going to be very hard for me. I’m pleased that you’re glad to have met me, the feeling is mutual.
[[ Anons are just cowards that happen to be jealous for one reason or another. It’s probably someone who wants you to care about them, but they’re honestly not worth being friends with if this is how they really feel. But either way, whether you’re here on Tumblr or on Facebook (This is where I came from originally: http://www.facebook.com/profile.php?id=100002406721303) I’ll be here. :] I know how it feels to have people up and leave without a word about how we could possibly communicate otherwise… Which is the reason I would never leave no matter where I go to RP or what the hell happens. I’ll always be around. <3 ]]
ooc: Really, I thank you from the very bottom of my heart, you have no idea how much your kindness means to me right now. I have sent you a request on Facebook as I have just opened an RP account there also. I honestly don’t know what I would do without people like yourself at the moment.
[[ No need to thank me, I just happen to be that ‘pillar of support’ to everyone. :] Don’t be afraid to take some time for yourself to think about things and let out your emotions, bottling things up and saving them for later will hurt more than you think. I just accepted you over there on FB, so if you’re ever in need of cheering up… You might just find it from looking over my profile there. Lol, really some messed up crack times on there. It was my second account because of drama-llama’s hovering around my first account, so you’ll probably only see crack on there until I get back into the swing of things. My friends are trying to decide between FB or Tumblr, but I’m going to balance the two. Anyway, I’m glad I can be here to help you out! I’ll keep hoping for the best for you. ]]